Monthly Archives: March 2010
So, here I am again! I guess when I’m are eating foods I am proud of, it is easier to post them on here ;-)
I made another green monster for breakfast this morning. Again, not my favorite but it was pretty good and surprisingly filling.
This smoothie contained: 1 cup almond milk, 1/2 cup POM juice, 1/2 cup strawberries, 1/2 banana, and some ice cubes.
Mid-morning, I snacked on some leftover nuts from the other day (with my coffee) because I forgot to pack a snack. So glad I still had these!
For lunch, I had leftover tofu scramble with asparagus and a bagel thin. I sort of made a sandwich out of it and I swear, for a minute, I forgot it was tofu :)
I also ate the other half of my banana from this morning. And a second cup of coffee.
Later in the afternoon, I snacked on some carrots & hummus.
Then I headed outside, where it was a warm 77 degrees and I tried out run/walk intervals for a race I am doing on Saturday. I keep all my fitness routines on another blog, River City Fitness.
When I got home from my workout, I was starving, so I had a Primal Strip to hold me over (Thai Peanut, yum yum).
Tonight was our girl’s night potluck, featuring Vegan Cornbread Casserole. Thanks, Margie, this was delicious!
With some pinto beans on the side. Beans ‘n cornbread y’all. Oh boy…
I also had a glass of Barefoot Moscato wine, which was actually really good. I’ve only had one other Moscato before and I thought it was nasty, so I was pleasantly surprised by this one!
I was in charge of dessert tonight :)
I made myself a plate. I love having fruit for dessert!
The granola was delicious too!
I didn’t go back for anymore because I was perfectly satisfied and I had two cups of hot tea while my food digested.
I feel like I am really handling myself better this week. It took a lot of mental rehearsing and willpower tonight. We even talked about how we handle being stressed out and how that relates to food, ha ha!
Hope you had a good night too. I’ll think of a question one of these days ;-)
As I was blogging my eats yesterday, I was really inspired to do some more full day posts. I don’t know that I will do them all the time again, but we’ll see what happens!
For breakfast this morning I had pumpkin oat bran which was so delicious.
I used 1/3 cup oat bran and cooked it with 1/3 cup Silk original almond milk, 1/3 cup of water and 1/3 cup Libby’s canned pumpkin. I sprinkled cinnamon in the mix and for the first time, I used a squirt of agave nectar!
Of course, I topped it with peanut butter and chocolate chips :)
More mixed nuts to snack on with my coffee.
For lunch, I threw together a salad with black refried beans and salsa. It was delicious!
I had a second cup of coffee and then went for a 3 mile run with Farrah. The weather today was so warm, it was my first run outdoors in shorts in a t-shirt!
When I got back, I had a vegan jerky strip. I received a package of free samples from Primal Spirit Foods a couple of weeks ago.
For dinner, I knew I wanted chickpeas but wasn’t sure what to do with them. Then I remembered, duh, chickpea burgers!
I topped mine with hummus this time because why not add more chickpeas to a chickpea burger? Ha ha. I also had some green beans and a sweet potato on the side.
For dessert, I had some strawberries with Dark Chocolate Dreams.
Time to go to bed now, sweet dreams for us all!
Our training schedule called for another 4 miles today but I was feeling a little stiff and sore from the day before. But I still wanted to take advantage of the lovely weather, in which I wore shorts and a short-sleeved t-shirt. Man, it had been too long!
So, we just ran three miles.
- Time: 29:40
- Distance: 3 miles
- Avg. pace: 9:53/mile
Part of the course we ran today will be in the 10-miler I’m running on Saturday. As we ran this part, I started to get a bit nervous that I am not quite ready for the race. At least not to run it all.
But I know I can run 6-7 miles, so perhaps I can walk/run or even walk the rest. Because honestly, finishing a 10-mile race, no matter how I do it, is quite an accomplishment. I need to take Kim’s advice and stop comparing to last year, the year before, etc.
Just have fun! That’s going to be my mantra this weekend.
As I sit here at the close of this day, I feel so happy. It’s like a whole new me!
I have been so touched by your all’s comments over the past couple of days. To have this support system is truly amazing.
I also feel great and I have a sound mind about everything that I ate today. It feels good to get back to the basics.
I started the day off with a green monster, of course.
Mid-morning, I enjoyed some coffee with So Delicious Coconut Milk Creamer (French Vanilla) and some mixed nuts.
Plus a juicy apple!
For a snack, I had some Stonyfield O’Soy yogurt. I really like this brand but I would like it even more if it didn’t have 25 grams of sugar. I also had cup of coffee #2.
I ate half the bag and then saved the rest for a future snack emergency. I felt better immediately and had a pretty great run considering I’m rusty!
For dinner, I knew I wanted some tofu.
I enjoyed half the box of tofu (sprinkled with turmeric, chili powder and garlic powder) with some steamed asparagus and brown rice.
For a snack, I had a banana with a tablespoon of Dark Chocolate Dreams :)
I’m going to have a cup of tea and go to bed. It’s been an amazing day, I’ll just leave it at that.
Today, I went on my first run in nearly a week!
I took it a little easy since it had been several days and I am coming off of an illness. I did pretty well, but toward the end my cough was bothering me and my left calf hurt.
- Time: 44:11
- Distance: 4.23 miles
- Average Pace: 10:27/mile
After lots of water and stretching, I felt GREAT. Getting back to my regular exercise and a re-focused approach to eating has made this day absolutely amazing.
Why do people hate Mondays? Ha ha.
Our weather is about to turn gorgeous and warm…I can’t wait for more outdoor runs this week. Even today in the 50′s was pleasant. I’m also looking forward to my 10-mile race on Saturday, whether or not I’m prepared for it ;-)
After the week that I had, you might expect that I wasn’t looking forward to this weigh in today. But honestly, since I processed my thoughts and emotions (via writing this blog post), I was not dreading the weigh in at all.
I truly looked forward to it because I feel like I am starting over again. There are things in life that are not fun to be constantly starting anew, but I feel like as far as health, eating and fitness goes, they are areas that should be reignited at times, even if it means taking a step back to reassess your goals.
I’m not looking at this weigh in as “let’s see the damage I did last week” or as a “bad” result from a week or poor eating, being sick, and not getting very much exercise. I feel like I really had a breakthrough over the weekend, so this is just the starting point for my renewed focus on wholesome nutrition and daily healthy exercise.
- Last week’s weight: 147.5 lbs
- This week’s weight: 151.2 lbs (+3.7 lb)
- Total weight lost to date: 0.4 lbs (8.6 to goal)
Wow. It’s a good thing I prepared myself for this weigh in ahead of time. I have almost completely gone back to square one. Luckily this challenge has 13 weeks left! Definitely enough time that this goal is still realistic for me.
As for the gain…I knew it, I expected it, but still, what a whacky week! I was sick and had a mental meltdown. But I’m definitely over it all now. Don’t worry, I’m not upset. I am using this as motivation. Such a change from the past me!
I really appreciate all the comments on my last post, I hope to incorporate a lot of your all’s ideas into my new plan. Thanks for sticking with me!
This week’s goals
I just have one and that is to get back to a healthy balance of eating good, nutritious foods and getting some much-needed exercise.
What about you?
First, I cannot thank you all enough for the most supportive comments ever. Sometimes when I write such personal posts as this one, I don’t know that anyone even reads them but I should know by now, you all are the best and always have my back :)
It was also interesting to read that so many of you are going through the same thing or have at some point in your journey. I think sometimes I try too hard and forget that I am human and I need to keep in mind who I used to be and where I came from.
In my last post, I mentioned making some changes. I’ve said before that being vegan has been amazing for my health, my body, and my soul as well. So there won’t be any changes there. In fact, I feel like I’ve gotten quite “used to it” and when I am doing everything the right way, I feel the best I ever have. So now, how do I get back to the “right way”?
This isn’t anything too drastic, just a refinement of what I’ve already established as my personal food philosophy. I will also be making some life changes and blogging changes (I need to be on here more!), but I’ll save those for another post :)
- Get control of my carbohydrate intake (from grains): I love carbs and as a runner, I need them, but the amount I’ve been eating lately is too much and could lead to inflammation and excess body weight (since anything not used by my body goes to storage). I also need to make most, if not all, of my grains WHOLE and cut back on the refined, more processed ones.
- Eat more veggies: including some big salads for lunch or dinner. This will be easier now that the weather is getting warmer because my body usually craves the cold, crisp veggies. Lately I’ve just been heating up a serving of frozen vegetables with dinner and skipping them otherwise.
- Make protein a focal point: I am usually good about eating beans, tofu, or a veggie burger with a meal but I need to be more intentional in making sure that I am getting enough protein in my diet over the course of the day. Protein not only makes me feel more satisfied and promotes muscle recovery, I’ve also noticed that when I let it slide my immune system pays for it — like now.
- Need dessert? Eat fruit: Last night, I had a really tasty pear for dessert and it made me realize that fruit would make the perfect dessert. I really don’t need all the dark chocolate and peanut butter all the time, or the bagels/oatmeal that I put them on. Even though I try not to eat too much fruit because of its sugar content, I’d rather eat fruit for dessert than have 1 or 2 servings of something heavier that I really don’t need at night. Like I said, I don’t have a moderation button.
- Absolutely NO: diet sodas, cold cereal, tortilla chips, jelly beans, or other “red light” foods or drinks in my house. I have to admit that I can’t control myself and moderation is not in my vocabulary, so they need to just be gone. I do okay when I’m out somewhere and they are in the room with me, as long as I don’t start consuming them. There is no “just one” or “just a few bites” for me. I realize that now.
I had an awesome lunch yesterday at North End Cafe (post about that coming later) with my friend Kim and we both talked about our desire to eat more fresh, less processed foods as much as possible. I can’t wait to start going to more Farmer’s Markets.
I’ll be honest and tell you that right now, I don’t even want to buy bread from the store. I would rather make my own. I know it takes time and effort but at least I would know what was in it. And I feel like if I had to take the time to make it myself, I wouldn’t eat it all so fast! I would make it last.
So I’m brainstorming ways that I can eat more whole foods that are as fresh and non-processed as possible. I also want to buy more organic when I can afford it. Any tips?
What is something in your diet that you would like to change or improve?
Get ready, this is going to be a long one. And I don’t have any pictures.
I have so many thoughts going through my head right now, I’m not even sure where to begin. I also titled this post about 10 different things before I just had to pick one.
Basically, I’m way off track right now. Yes, I have been sick this week but I feel like I have used that as an excuse to sabotage myself. I had a really good week prior to this one, including when we traveled to North Carolina. I felt good about my choices then. I feel awful right now.
But I don’t believe in guilt trips or beating myself up because that just gets you nowhere. Instead, I am taking this opportunity to write about how I am feeling right now and to use that to make changes so that I can learn more about myself and what makes me (or doesn’t make me) feel my best.
Let me just break a few things down for you. This week: I ate an entire box of Oatmeal Squares cereal (in three days), an entire loaf of French bread in two days (minus one piece that I threw away this morning), stuffed myself with tortilla chips until I felt sick. I also drank an entire 12 pack of diet ginger ale in two days “because I’m sick.” The list goes on.
I’ve also quit blogging, photographing, and journaling. I’ve let everything go. I have lost my sense of control. While I don’t know that my “problems” are as serious as that of an addict, I feel like I’ve relapsed.
Sure, everyone has their moments when they indulge and let loose a little bit. For me, this is usually limited to one meal or one day a week. But it has turned into much more than that. Everything in moderation, right? I don’t know if moderation exists for me. At least not in the long term sense.
It made me think of a post that Heather, one of my favorite bloggers, wrote a while back, aptly titled I Don’t Do Moderation. I’ve said this before, but I feel like I can really relate to her because we’ve both been through major weight loss and have some of the same food issues.
In this post, she said: “Everything in moderation doesn’t work for me. I wish it did, but it doesn’t.” I feel like I have come to the realization that the same is true for me.
I’ve not exercised since Wednesday. I definitely feel like rest during an illness is important, even if it is hard for me to do. But I have gone from resting for my health to being totally lazy. Honestly, this is not about fear of gaining weight. I know how to lose weight. This is about not feeling good.
I went to a women’s conference at my friend’s church yesterday and the guest speaker was talking about how we use “things” to fuel us (food, drugs, behaviors, etc.) instead of turning to God for help. And while these things work temporarily, they burn out fast and leave us empty.
I feel like I have been using food in that sense. This week, I’ve been using food to make me feel better from being sick and to make me feel better about not being able to exercise (which is questionable itself). While it may have provided some temporary relief, it has now burned out and I’m not better.
I feel like absolute crap today. Not just because I have a cold/cough or whatever. Because I’ve let myself slip so far. But this is also a good thing. I’ve been woken up by it, I’ve noticed. And I’m going to snap myself out of it. I’ve been given a wake up call and it’s time to answer it.
I’ll be back later to talk about some changes I want to make and how I feel that these changes are what’s best for me right now. I’m still going to be vegan though, just so we’re clear. Being vegan has been such a blessing to me and I need to lean on that now more than ever.
I’m also going to make some other things more of a priority, like quiet time/prayer, yoga, and maybe even some accountability outside of the blog. It’s obvious to me now that there are some things in my life I’m not dealing with very well, which is why I feel the need to eat when I don’t need to and to eat too much of things I don’t need to be eating too much of.
Thank you if you’ve read this far. I’m thankful for this blog and being able to share the realness of what I’m going through. Just because I’ve lost a lot of weight and made some really positive changes doesn’t mean I’m immune to setbacks or problems with food. It’s a daily challenge and every choice I make is still very important.
I don’t know if you know this about me, but I do not like “rest” days!
It’s not that I mind taking a day off from running by doing another activity or taking it easy with my workout from time to time. I just don’t like those days when I’m not supposed to (or can’t) do anything!
Unfortunately, now that I am sick, I must take complete rest days. On Tuesday, the first day I felt ill, I took a 45 minute walk. But ever since then I have not done anything but sit, lay down, drink lots of fluids and eat some nutrient dense food (and some not-so-nutrient-dense, ha ha).
With a 10 mile race coming up next Saturday, I will admit to being a little nervous but I can say with a sound mind that I have done the best I can with my training. Life happens, things come up, people get sick, we run out of time, etc.
I don’t care if I have to run-walk this race or if my time is slower this year. I’m not hoping to do anything but show up and have a good time!
I will start reporting my workouts again when they start happening again. I’m trying to take little walks here and there while I’m at work but nothing too strenuous. Thank you all for your feedback on my last post!
Hey guys! If you were wondering what happened to me, I am afraid I have come down with some sort of Springtime illness. I thought it was allergies at first, but now I’m thinking pharyngitis? Bronchitis, maybe?
Anyway, I really can’t stand being away from you all for so long! I miss our “talks” ha ha.
I don’t have much to blog about since my eats have been rather boring: mostly carbs and ginger ale. Plus some chai tea :) I read online that the spices in chai tea were good for sore throats and bronchitis. I hate taking cold or cough medicine, it makes me so groggy which makes me feel worse than I already did.
I’ve been loading up on veggies even though they don’t taste good to me at the moment. I believe rest, fluids and good nutrition are the best things for me right now.
I watched two movies yesterday!
First, I watched the movie “Love Happens” with Aaron Eckhart and Jennifer Aniston. It’s the one where he is a motivational speaker/author who helps people deal with grief, but he’s struggling himself (he hides it). I really liked it, which I did not expect. I found the message touching and I actually found the acting to be good, which also surprised me considering who’s in it.
I also rented “The Final Destination” because I had seen the other three, so I figured, why not?
I really liked the first one because it was ground breaking; the idea of “death” having a “plan” was interesting. And the second one was quite realistic with the huge car crash at the beginning (which we’re way more likely to die in than an airplane).
The third one was just okay because the acting got way worse and the death scenes became more over the top and elaborate. Same was true for this 4th installment. It was pretty ridiculous.
One thing I did like about this film though was that the characters who have those “instincts” that something just isn’t right, went with them most of the time. I have had a few cases in my own life where I feel something “off” and I’ve always been told to trust your instincts and get away!
Even if you are just being paranoid, it’s better to be safe than sorry.
So that’s what I’ve been up to, ha ha. Hoping to rent some more movies and lay on the couch again tonight.