Sunday night, as I was walking my dog around 8:30, I had a revelation. I was wearing flannel pajama pants and a really tight black “Bob Dylan Forever” tank top because that’s how I roll; it’s never too early for pjs! I should’ve taken a picture of that.
We were almost back to the house, when I noticed that my tank top was riding up on me causing my stomach to stick out a bit. But I didn’t care. I pulled it back down and laughed. It hit me then and I realized just how comfortable I am with my body now, finally.
I have accepted my faults, none of which are truly faults, but they are just things I notice. My stomach still looks “flabby” even though I’ve lost weight, done a ton of abs work and cardio, etc. The reason is that I have excess skin thanks to years of abuse — stretching out my stomach — which is where I tend to gain weight first. But I don’t mind it anymore. Only one person besides me (well, and the dog) sees it and they both still love me 😉 I have also found clothes that hide it rather well, so who cares?
I also have a little bit under my arms and inner thighs but those have never really bothered me. In fact, I am so proud of my arms and legs! They have walked, ran, and lifted weights, done yoga and other amazing things. My upper body is probably my favorite because it is where I notice the biggest difference in my weight loss and training. I actually have visible arm muscles now!
Anyway, the point of this post was to let you know that I have accepted myself, just the way I am. I worked really hard to get to this place and there’s no going back, only forward. I am proud of all that I have accomplished, but especially my newfound interests in running, healthy foods and nutrition, as well as maintaining such a large loss for a year and a half now. I am proof that it takes true lifestyle changes, things that you can live with long term.
Now that I have challenged myself to no longer count calories and have thrown the scale in the back of the closet, I am so much more relaxed and comfortable with my day-to-day eating and exercise. There’s no more pressure!
And anytime I’m feeling down, I can always go back to this post and remember how things used to be and what they are now!
Thank you for reading this.
p.s. I think this might have something to do with the fact that I have done yoga the past two days, but hey, whatever works 😉