For those of you who may be new to my blog, you may not know that from 2007-2008, I lost 70 pounds through my own hard work and lifestyle changes. When I was getting ready to turn 25, I found that I just wasn’t happy. Sure, I was married to a great guy, had a good job and managed to have a social life with my wonderful friends. But I did not like myself. The way I looked, the way I felt, nothing. So I worked hard and I changed.
But, ever since I reached a certain point on the scale, I’ve been obsessing (off and on) about how to get past it. I never really reached my original “goal” weight but I got to a comfortable point and never made it any further. When the number doesn’t go down, I get frustrated and think I’ve failed somehow. Then there are some times when that number starts to creep up and I get worried, especially when my clothes start to get tighter. So I refocus, get those few pesky pounds off and I’m back to where I was. This especially happens in the summer, I’ve come to refer to it as my “summer fluff.”
I know a lot of people think maintenance is easy but I do not. I feel like it has been a much harder struggle than weight loss ever was for me. Maybe that is because it’s been so long ago now that maintenance mode has just taken over. But I feel like every choice I make is important and if I don’t want to end up back where I was in pre-2007, I have to always be working hard at it. Partially, that is true. But I also need to stop putting so much pressure on myself. Because I know me and when I’m under pressure, it’s no good. It doesn’t motivate me, it breaks me down.
So, recently I have ceased weighing myself. I think it’s been well over a month since I’ve stepped on any scale. While I’ve given up weighing before, this time I feel like I really don’t care what I weigh anymore. Not in a “I’m giving up” way but in a “I’m breaking free from this torture” way. If I’m still wearing the same clothes I was after my initial weight loss, if I feel good and if I can be comfortable where I am, then why does it matter if I weigh one number or another? Why am I always trying to improve when I’m perfectly fine where I am?
I have also realized that by always being focused on calories, weight, exercise, that I am missing so much of the rest of my life. Did I mention I’m turning 30 next year? ;-)
If I’m being real with myself, I have to remember that I originally sought to lose weight for health reasons. I was sick, borderline everything and only 25 — a scary situation. These days, I am very healthy, all of my numbers are in the optimal ranges and my doctors are always impressed with my diet and workout regimen. So why do I care that I don’t have a flat stomach? Why do I care that I never got out of a certain “decade” in weight numbers? None of those things are health-related anymore.
I think some of it is comparing myself to others, seeing people my same age and height that weigh a lot less than I do. Some of it is the media I’m sure, even though I like to deny that one a lot. Some of it is my natural perfectionism. I am my own worst critic sometimes. But I’m making some great progress!
I hope she doesn’t mind me saying this but I had a real breakthrough when my friend Stephanie posted the following statement on her blog: “in my head, i’ve always admired very lean women, with their flat stomachs, small chests, and perfect pencil legs. but in my heart, i realize that’s not me, and i’m better learning to love what i do have than longing for what i don’t have.”
It was like the light shone down from above and the chorus sang “Hallelujah!” I had a major revelation about myself thanks to some thoughts from a friend about her own situation. This is why blogging is great and why we need to communicate with each other through this medium.
Little by little, I am learning to embrace who I am, my life, the body that I have and you know what? It’s great! Instead of wanting to be the next size down, I love my size. I also love that I have to buy one size at one store and a different one at another because clothes are made differently and I am not shaped like anyone else but me. It’s okay that I can’t wear low rise jeans, really. It’s better to wear what is flattering than to try to hide what is not in order to be trendy.
So if you’ve ever felt this way too, my advice would be this: instead of focusing on the things we don’t have or what we do have that we don’t like, we need to start focusing on our strengths. I’ll go first.
I may not have a flat stomach but I have incredible arms! Stuff may jiggle in places I don’t like but darn it, I have completed 5 half marathons, I still work out 5 days a week and I feel incredible! I am also feeding my body the healthiest diet I know and still allowing myself the occasional splurges (I heart french fries). I may never wear a two-piece but my doctors say I am very healthy!
Does it get any better than that? I think not :)
I have to say that after all the revelations I’ve had the past two weeks, especially in regards to weight, I didn’t even really want to weigh in today. Not because I’ve given up but because I’m feeling okay where I’m at.
But I committed to this challenge back in February so I am going to see it through.
- Last week’s weight: 149 lbs
- This week’s weight: 150.3 (+1.3 lbs)
- 8 weeks to go/8.7 lbs to goal
Thoughts? Last week, I weighed on my scale at home (because I was not at work) and this week I weighed at the gym at work. At home, I also weigh with no clothes on and this week at work I decided not to change into shorts because if I’m really comfortable, it won’t matter if I weigh with my pants on and it saves me time too. So there you have it.
Yesterday, I had a really bad headache, partially caused by being overheated, so I was laying on the couch last night with the A/C on and just wearing shorts and a bra. Usually, even in my own house, I would be too embarrassed to sit around like this, but for some reason last night I was totally comfortable.
You see, even though I lost a lot of weight almost three years ago, I still carry the “scars” from it — excess skin, stretch marks, etc. Even though I am more comfortable in clothes that fit me well, I still have trouble with things like bathing suits, tight fitting shirts or anything spandex (which no one should wear, really). But why? It is because I don’t like the way I look in certain things? Do I really care what other people think?
One day I pointed this out to a friend of mine when I was wearing a shirt that showed my “rolls” and she said: “Sarah, I’m pretty sure you are the only one who notices it.” Maybe she’s right. Maybe it is okay to be 5’5″ and weigh 150 lbs (especially when you consider at one point, I was at 225 lbs). Maybe it is okay to be way too “chicken” to have surgery to remove excess skin because it would be too expensive and painful.
What I do know is that I have worked VERY HARD to get what I do have. I have walked, run, weight trained, done yoga, and treated my body very well through a healthy diet, especially now that I have started the Happy Herbivore 30 Whole Days challenge. So to me, that means I should be proud of my body, the way it is right now. Because look what all it’s done! So as I sat there on the couch last night, I felt good about myself. I felt comfortable and happy with my body.
So what now? Since I am in a healthy range, the weight really doesn’t matter. I’m still going to monitor it because Lord knows I won’t be comfortable if it starts going up too high (which has happened to me the last two summers). But I’m not going to stress and I’m not going to try to push my body to be something that it’s not. Because I’m fine just the way I am. Whether I stay around 147-150 forever, or someday I do manage to get to 135-140, I will still be me.
Maybe all this confidence is coming from my new haircut?!
Thanks for being such great blog friends! I will see you all later with a recap of HH30 Day 3 :)
What a difference a week makes!
Last week, I had a major revelation. It was a wake up call, to say the least. Even though I gave up eating bars for Lent, I really feel like this was what I was really meant to learn: that I need to treat my body well by eating wholesome, nutritious foods and not to rely on junk when my health or my emotions are ailing.
Since I am in the middle of a weight loss challenge here at work, let’s see how I did in that area:
- Last week’s weight: 151.2 lbs
- This week’s weight: 150.8 lbs (Difference: -0.4)
- Total lost to date: 0.8 lbs
Obviously, I feel pretty good about this number, especially after my huge gain last week. I almost expected a bigger loss, but I really feel like I did my best this week, which is all I could hope for. I ate nutritious and whole foods, kept processed stuff to a minimum, and had a positive frame of mind the entire week. Plus I ran 10 miles for goodness sakes!
I’m still a ways away from my original goal of losing 10 pounds for this challenge. However, there are still 12 weeks left to go, which is plenty of time. I just need to keep things in perspective and be patient with myself.
I also noticed that I blogged my eats for an entire week! I am definitely feeling like the old me again. When I am proud of what I am eating, it’s easier to share it here :)
This week, my goals are: keep eating the way I have been this past week, maybe even including some more variety in my fruits & veggies, take some walks with Suzie in the evenings, and to take at least one relaxing bath at some point this week — I did this last night and it was amazing. I soaked in some epsom salts for my muscles, lit a candle, and put on soothing music. Nice way to wind down a busy weekend :)
What are your goals this week?
In case you’ve missed previous weeks and wonder how I got to this point, check out my Pound for Pound Challenge page!
After the week that I had, you might expect that I wasn’t looking forward to this weigh in today. But honestly, since I processed my thoughts and emotions (via writing this blog post), I was not dreading the weigh in at all.
I truly looked forward to it because I feel like I am starting over again. There are things in life that are not fun to be constantly starting anew, but I feel like as far as health, eating and fitness goes, they are areas that should be reignited at times, even if it means taking a step back to reassess your goals.
I’m not looking at this weigh in as “let’s see the damage I did last week” or as a “bad” result from a week or poor eating, being sick, and not getting very much exercise. I feel like I really had a breakthrough over the weekend, so this is just the starting point for my renewed focus on wholesome nutrition and daily healthy exercise.
- Last week’s weight: 147.5 lbs
- This week’s weight: 151.2 lbs (+3.7 lb)
- Total weight lost to date: 0.4 lbs (8.6 to goal)
Wow. It’s a good thing I prepared myself for this weigh in ahead of time. I have almost completely gone back to square one. Luckily this challenge has 13 weeks left! Definitely enough time that this goal is still realistic for me.
As for the gain…I knew it, I expected it, but still, what a whacky week! I was sick and had a mental meltdown. But I’m definitely over it all now. Don’t worry, I’m not upset. I am using this as motivation. Such a change from the past me!
I really appreciate all the comments on my last post, I hope to incorporate a lot of your all’s ideas into my new plan. Thanks for sticking with me!
This week’s goals
I just have one and that is to get back to a healthy balance of eating good, nutritious foods and getting some much-needed exercise.
What about you?
I can’t believe we are five weeks into this challenge already! We still have a long way to go (ends June 30th) but I’m sure it will fly by.
If you’ve missed any of my weekly updates along the way, check out my Pound for Pound Challenge page.
Last week, I felt like I had finally overcome emotional eating and I still feel like I am in control of that. I don’t think it’s something you get over permanently but I’ve definitely made a step in the right direction.
I also wanted to focus more on what makes me happy and stress less. I feel like I worked on that this week but I’ve still got a ways to go. Going to a conference with my husband and some really great Christian friends definitely boosted my spirits though!
I also challenged myself to get in two days of weight training, which I am proud to say I managed to complete!
And I journaled every day but had to break the 9:00 rule a couple of times while I was out of town just due to scheduling. But I only ate if I was hungry, so I am proud of that.
Overall, even though I was out of town Thursday-Saturday, I felt like I did pretty good with my eating and exercise. I wrote down everything and exercised in the hotel gym Thursday (ran 2 miles) and Friday (morning-elliptical and weight training, evening-ran 3 miles).
I did not eat ONE thing that was not vegan the entire trip, even though keeping it this way was very challenging at times. So I had a clear conscience as well.
Let’s see how I did…
Last week’s weight: 147.8 lbs
This week’s weight: 147.5 lbs (-0.3)
Total pounds lost: 4.1 (5.9 to go)
I am so excited that 5 weeks in, I am getting close to halfway to my goal (of 10 lbs). I definitely feel like I have faced a few challenges along the way so far (like going out of town) and yet have been successful. This is a great feeling!
I’m telling you guys: journaling, exercise and attitude. That is what is working for me. I don’t “diet” or restrict my calories, I just eat when I’m hungry and portion control so I don’t go crazy. I average 1700-2000 per day depending on my activity (I eat more on long run days).
I exercise about 6 days a week, sometimes running, sometimes weight training and sometimes taking the dog for a nice walk. It doesn’t have to be a certain amount of time or a certain intensity to be effective. Every little bit counts, just make sure you do something!
My attitude has to be positive. Even if I had gained weight this week, I would’ve been okay with it. I also didn’t expect to lose a lot, so I didn’t set myself up for disappointment that way. Just do the best you can and go with the flow. Be happy and confident!
It felt so good to stock up my refrigerator and pantry yesterday and I’m looking forward to a good week of healthy eating and moving. With the exception of today, the weather should be lovely this week so I am really looking forward to that.
Thanks again to all the ladies who guest posted for me while I was gone. You all rock!
Checking in with Lent
Did you all give up anything for Lent? How’s it going? I gave up eating bars for Lent, which seems silly but it has been quite the challenge. Like any good or bad habit though, I feel like a few weeks was all it took to break myself of eating them. I really think I’ll go back to eating bars sometimes but mostly Larabars (which have few ingredients) or making them myself.
I would like to get in 2 more days of weight training this week and make that a regular thing. I’ve been doing my own Body Pump style workout but I think I might change it up and try some heavier weights with less reps this week. Gotta keep the body guessing!
I also want to get outside as much as possible. Spring is finally here and after the long cold winter we had, I must take full advantage :)
What are your goals for this week?
What a weekend!
On Saturday, I ran my second best 5K, woo hoo!
We also had nice enough weather to take the dog for a walk and did some major grocery shopping. Then we had dinner with friends and played cards, during which I enjoyed a few amaretto sours! It had been a long time ;-)
Yesterday, I got to take the dog for another nice walk and attended an Oscar party at my friend Courtney’s house. While I stuck to mostly carrots & hummus, I did manage to eat my fair share of tortilla chips and jelly beans!
But I know that one weekend of enjoying myself a little too much isn’t going to do that much damage.
And even though I was facing a weigh in today, I did not worry that my weekend escapades would catch up with me. I was definitely not treating my body as a temple! Jelly beans are so NOT vegan. I broke the “9:00 rule” on Saturday and Sunday.
But, I choose not to dwell on things like that. I acknowledged those thoughts and moved on. Negativity will get you nowhere. I know I’m not perfect.
Instead, I reminded myself that today is a new day and it’s a new week, so let’s see what we can accomplish. First, let’s find out how I “did” this week:
This week’s weight: 149.3
Weekly difference: + 0.6
Net weight loss: 2.3 lbs
See, just over half a pound. Nothing to get concerned about. I overdid a few things this weekend, plus sometimes the weight fluctuates for other reasons (hormones, stress, etc).
Especially after losing 2.9 lbs. last week, it’s almost a given to either stay the same or go up a little bit.
This morning when I was getting ready for work, I had an overwhelming sense of loving my body. I treat it well most of the time and I definitely give it plenty of exercise!
I’m happy and comfortable where I am. Jelly beans and amaretto sours aside, I eat very well most of the time. I feel the best I ever have. Running is going great! Life is good.
And while I am hoping to get some results from this challenge, it is mostly about helping the hungry and inspiring my co-workers to get healthy themselves.
Goals for this week
- Get in at least 2 days of strength training (only got 1 last week)
- Absolutely NO diet sodas (I have lost control with them and artificial sweeteners make me eat more)
- Stay positive! :)
What are your goals for this week?
Did you miss Week 1?
This week, I was feeling really good going into the weigh in. I did not care what the number on the scale said, honestly. I do care about this challenge because it is for a good cause but I figure, even if I don’t lose the weight I pledged, I can make a donation to my local food bank instead. :)
What really matters is that I am pushing myself, just a little bit, in the realms of healthy eating and exercising. This past week, I managed to get in some sort of activity every single day last week, thanks to a week long gym pass, and it feels so good. I took a body pump-type class, 4 yoga classes (!), and also managed to get 4 decent runs in (on the treadmill) over the course of the week.
God bless the Cardio Cinema! I am so sad my pass ran out though :(
My eating was also much improved over last week, with only two instances where I broke the “9:00 rule.” I had a little trouble with portion control (dang tortilla chips) at a gathering on Saturday night but one time isn’t going to kill me. However, I did journal every day!
I am also hearing great things from my team members so far. There are 9 other people doing this challenge with me, all at various levels of health and fitness. Being their “Captain” so far has been a great experience. I’ve been sending them emails and messages and hearing back from almost of all of them on a weekly basis.
Being able to share my knowledge and experience of improving my overall health (not just weight loss) is such an honor.
So, let’s see how I did this week!
- Last week’s weigh in: 151.6 lbs
- This week’s weigh in: 148.7 lbs
- Difference: -2.9 lbs
Now, I don’t usually lose that much in a week. I’m chalking it up to something being weird last week, since my weight was 148.5 just two weeks ago. But I did use the same scale as last week, wore the same clothes, etc. Just don’t look at my 2.9 lbs loss and be discouraged. This is just me and this is not normal!
This week, I also had my friend Farrah do my measurements and body fat, which I find to be much more important numbers anyway. This way, if the scale does not go down any further, I can at least tell in what areas I am making some progress.
Measurements (in inches):
- Neck – 12.75
- Shoulders – 41
- Chest – 37.25
- Waist – 32.75
- Hips – 39.25
- Waist-to-hip ratio: 0.83 (moderate risk – ideally this should be below 0.80)
- Arms – L: 12.75, R: 13.5
- Forearms – L: 9, R: 8.75
- Thighs – L: 23, R: 23.25
- Calves – L: 15, R: 14.5
Body fat percentage (using calipers): 26.2%
I am happy to have those measurements done for now and it will be interesting to look back at the end of June and see what progress I have made.
Ideally, I would like to see my body fat get at least under 25%, if not 20%. I’d like the waist-to-hip ratio to come down a bit too. Those are the only measurement-based goals I have.
As for my eating habits, I feel like I did pretty good on the goals I set last week. I will be keeping these up into the coming week and set a new goal when I get the inspiration!
This morning, I had my first “official” weigh in for the Pound for Pound Challenge.
I say “official” this time because I gave my official weight last week, but that was from my home scale and we all know the importance of consistency and using the same scale each week.
Today’s Weight: 151.6
I am up a bit from last week, but there were several factors at play here:
- I used a different scale this week
- I weighed at 11 a.m. instead of first thing in the morning
- I had clothes on
- My muscles are a bit inflamed from the awesome workout I had yesterday
So I’m not upset, concerned, etc. I wouldn’t be even if all of that weren’t true. The scale does not determine my happiness or my satisfaction with my body. I love me!
The last time I was in a weight loss program, I weighed in at the same time on the same day on the same scale once a week. I also wore the same or very similar clothing. The more consistent you can be, the more accurate your readings.
I might get rid of my home scale too. I originally did not have a scale at home, but since we are off work for two weeks around the Christmas holidays, I got one to keep me accountable around that time back in 2007.
Finally, I am counting today as my starting point and setting some goals for this week!
Goals for Week 1:
- Journal/Meal planning
- Portion control
- Obey the 9 o’clock rule (aka no eating 2 hours before bedtime)
If you are in a weight loss program, how is it going for you? What are your goals this week?
Happy February 1st!
I love the beginning of new months because it always makes me want to start a new challenge. I’ve actually had something brewing for a while now and I feel like it’s finally time to let the cat out of the bag, so to speak.
Disclaimer : The following is about me only and should not be used to determine your healthy weight or how you feel about yourself!
I haven’t posted about weight in a long time. I’d noticed a lot of other bloggers have posted on their recent weight struggles, so I guess I’m joining the club. But really, their discussions have inspired me to finally talk about what’s been going on “behind the scenes” here for a while.
As most of you know, in 2007 I lost 70 lbs. My heighest weight ever was the year after I got married (2006). I remember weighing myself and seeing 225 show up on the screen. I was absolutely stunned. I also remember the day (March ’08) that I got on the scale and saw my lowest weight ever, 144. I was stunned again, but in a good way that time.
I have been far from that number for a while now. I’ve gone through my share of ups (hitting 160 in July ’09) and downs with weight the past year or so, but I’ve managed to maintain in the low 150’s for a while now. I think I needed to rest here for a while, to get comfortable in my skin and to change my attitude toward my own body image and where I thought I needed to be.
I have done lots of experimenting in my diet this past year too, including lowering my sugar intake, going back and forth with carbs, introducing new foods, and finally making a decision to try a vegan diet, which I have now stuck with officially for 4 months today!
At this moment, I am the happiest, healthiest and most confident I have ever been. I have learned quite a bit about myself over these past three years and I really feel like I have this blog, other bloggers, and all you readers to thank for a lot of that.
Because of this, I’m ready to get moving again. I’m ready to go to the next level. Not in a negative “ugh, I need to lose weight” way, but more of a “hey, let’s see where this goes” way.
I’m not going to fret over anything because even if nothing changes, I’m perfectly happy the way I am, like I said before. This is just a challenge I am issuing to myself to see where it takes me.
My original goal in 2007 was to get down to 135 lbs. I don’t know if that is even attainable, since I’ve never been there. But based on my height (5’4″), frame (medium), age and activity level it seems to be. I know BMI isn’t the best thing to go on but I feel like I should mention that for my height, build and age, 150’s is considered overweight, just on the borderline. I really don’t have that much muscle ;-)
However, I’m not going to focus so much on getting to any certain number as I am making sure that I’m at a more “appropriate” weight for me. I am healthy now and I am happy now. But achieving optimum health is something I continue to strive for. If losing even just a few more pounds improves my life in some way, then I want to go for it.
When I started officially training for my next half marathon, I weighed in at 153.5 lbs. In the 4 weeks that have followed, I have lost 4 lbs, down to 149.5 today. So I must be doing something right.
So what am I doing?
Well, for the past two weeks, I have been journaling again. You may remember a post I did on journaling and how it really helped me lose weight in the past.
Basically, I plan out my day in advance. In the evening of the day before, I’ll write out what I’m going to have for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks for the day, leaving only an after dinner snack up in the air. Sometimes I need one and sometimes I don’t, so I let that one just determine itself later.
I also write little notes to myself like “running 4 miles today” or “no eating after 9:00” as reminders of what I’ve got going on and what will help keep me on track. That 9:00 rule helps more than I ever would’ve imagined!
Yes, I do total up calories, most of the time, when I am able. Sometimes I don’t feel like it, so I won’t, and sometimes I just plain don’t know the calorie info for something so I leave it blank and go on. I feel like as of right now, I have a comfortable relationship with this system. I don’t obsess, I don’t worry if something had 700 calories and I missed it. I just stay positive and move on. It’s just so good to be aware again.
I don’t set a “goal” or a “limit” for myself in any way. I just portion control the food I think I need to eat for the day (since I spend most of the day away from home), I judge my hunger levels appropriately and then tally everything up as best I can at the end of the day. Most of the time, over the course of a week, I eat an average of 1700 calories per day. Sometimes 2000, sometimes 1500, it just depends on what I had going on that particular day.
No day is the same, I tell you. Obviously I need to eat more when I run and my hunger lets me know that. I eat less on rest days naturally. I’m going to eat a little more (and perhaps have a glass of wine) at special events and my Wednesday night potluck dinners with my girlfriends. Whatever I do has to fit into my life or else it’s not worth doing :)
So I’m going to keep using this system for a while. Seeing, writing and planning ahead for what I eat is very helpful to me, plus it also helps me make an easy grocery list and use stuff up around the house which is good for my financial situation too.
It’s a win-win for me, but I realize that this way of doing things does not work for everyone so please don’t take my word for it, find out for yourself what is best for you.
If this ever becomes a burden to me in any way, trust me, I will move on to something else. Have I told you how eating vegan and practicing yoga again has made me so much more positive and peaceful? Anyway…
- I keep a food journal where I plan meals, snacks, etc. and total up calories most days
- I run, weight train, and practice yoga
- I’m eating a vegan diet and loving every minute of it
- I listen to my body and eat an extra snack if I need to or talk myself out of one if I don’t
- I stop eating at 9:00 p.m. (an hour before bedtime) most days of the week (with an exception if I’m up really late and feel hungry again)
- I only weigh once a week, on Mondays
- I have no specific goal in mind, only to try this out and see what happens
- Positivity all the way!
Hope the first day of February is a good one for you! Thanks for reading.
Edited to add: Check out this post from a year ago! Funny how as much as things change, they remain the same :)
Hey guys, happy Wednesday :)
In the words of Bon Jovi “Ooooh, we’re halfway there…”
I don’t have any food pics to share with you yet but I hope to have those up tonight. Basically, after a long day at work and a nice walk at the park with Suzie and a friend of mine, I was whooped and fell asleep around 9:00. But I woke up at 11:00 to go downstairs, turn my phone off, wave at my husband (literally, I was too tired to speak) and then go back to bed, ha ha.
But I’m feeling good today. I don’t have any cold symptoms and that tired worn down feeling is gone, even if I have been feeling the need for more sleep lately — I think I’m ready for hibernation mode since it’s been so cool outside. We’re having 70’s this weekend after a brief heatwave over the next couple of days. What is this?
But, I still took some Vitamin C this morning and I’m still washing my hands every opportunity I get :)
I looked at my calendar this week and realized that it has been a month since I started working toward a lower sugar lifestyle. I officially began this journey on my husband’s birthday, July 27th, and here we are a month later already, I can’t believe it. Read my post about it all here: What’s going on?
Since I prefer to look at my weight progression over the course of a month, rather than week to week, I thought it was high time for an update. I do weigh myself every Monday but I don’t feel like it is worth it to mention every single week since we know there are times when it fluctuates for reasons that we cannot control.
On 7/27, I weighed in at 160.5 lbs.
On 8/24, I weighed in at 151 lbs.
So, in a month’s time I was able to get back into my comfort zone by paying more attention to the foods I was putting into my body, cutting back on processed junk, exercising moderately and resting when I needed to rest. It is easy to get caught in a rut of desserts (like baked goods, candy and ice cream) and sugary foods (like sweetened yogurts, energy bars, fruit). It’s like an addiction. Now that I have that under control, I no longer feel the urge to eat sugary foods, even fruit. I do like to have a serving with breakfast for the nutrients and because it goes well with oatmeal but other than that, I don’t really crave it the way I used to.
I do eat dark chocolate almost every night but it’s enough to satisfy me and dark chocolate does have antioxidant qualities (that’s my story anyway). I do have the occasional dessert but only on special occasions (like Wednesday nights with my girls) and I am not keeping them in the house! I do have a container of ice cream in my freezer right now from the other night when I was feeling ill, but it’s not staying there, ha ha.
I also realize that it’s easy to get caught in exercise ruts too. I think sometimes I would exercise more so that I could eat dessert, and that is not healthy either. I also ate way too much when I was running/training and it has been a hard transition now that I don’t run long distances anymore. I’ve had to relearn body needs vs. wants and habits.
Now, I just try to stick to moderate workouts, including a good mixture of walking, running, weight training and yoga. Plus occasionally venturing onto new cardio machines like the stair master and rower. I’ve also come to appreciate days off from exercise or at least lighter days and not packing a gym bag to work every single day. Today is one of those days…I wore tennis shoes though so I can at least take a few short strolls to clear my head :)
Exercise, like dessert, can be overdone. I think I am finding a balance, slowly but surely. I still plan on tracking my calories for a while just because it has been interesting for me to see the days when I need more than others and what foods keep me more satisfied at what times. I set no goals for the day and it is in no way obsessive. If it becomes that way, I will end this little experiment.
In summary, I feel great. I feel like I’m in control again and I certainly don’t feel deprived in any way. I feel like I’ve found what works best for my body and I have no plans of changing that any time soon. It is important that we all find what works for us and this won’t necessarily be the same as another person in your life, another blogger, etc. It’s something you have to find for yourself, even if you are inspired by others along the way.
Thanks friends! Be back soon :)